We all grow up dreaming about a perfect wedding and a perfect dress; but I always dreamed of a perfect mariage. It's weird and good at the same time, because most people put so much emphasis on the wedding and totally forget about the mariage. I love the idea of being with one person, sharing the same kind of love and safety of mariage. And let's be honest, I'm a sucker for love. In its pure form. I love love and I love everything about it. Well, maybe not everything since I can very well do without the break up part where you have the feeling that your heart might as well have been snatched from its place and you're left with a hole bigger than planet earth itself. I can also do without those long hours that seem like days, and days that seem like months, when you're thinking that you will never get over it and nobody else will ever be as good, as sweet, as loving, as cute, as funny ...and so many more as. But then months after, you think about it all again and you just can't believe what you used to think. Or if you're one of the unlucky ones; months later, you think about it and just can't believe you still think the same way let alone feel the same thing. But one wouldn't be able to enjoy love at its purest form without having experienced pain at its purest form. The lucky ones among us are those who were able to live, love, feel pain yet love again. I did the first three and I'm waiting with held breath to experience the fourth one. While waiting, I cannot ignore the fact that it's taking quite some time for it to happen. Some say I shouldn't be looking for it and it will happen. Others say that if I look hard enough, I will find the right person. Well I say, that I don't know what to do anymore. I am so tired and so eager to finally find it. I never knew it would be so hard. And the more I think about it, the less reasons I seem to find. I just don't understand what's taking so long. I am ready and have been for quite some time now and with each birthday passing I just feel less and less lucky. What gets to me at times is the fact that I'm not even in a relationship, and when I do the math, it's not as pleasant as I'd want it to be. But even with all this said, I am still hopeful, and I'll always be. You want to know what's keeping me so hopeful? Well, I'm going to share my secret with you. Here it is: I am 100% sure that love is out there for me. I am sure that someday sooner or later I will find someone who's going to love all of me. I am sure that he is out there and that we will meet when it's the right time for us to meet.And it will be better than I ever thought. Until then, I will prepare any way I can to recognize that love while praying it'll happen... sooner rather than later.
I'd like to thank all of you who visit my blog on a daily basis and those who just pass by. Thank you for your support and your comments and emails. I'm happy to hear that my life's so entertaining, I will keep on posting. LOVE LUX
I got this email today from H whom I dated in 1999 and 2002 on and off for a few months. "hey you how have you been? every time i c you sign in i. i always wanna say hi to you! but then agian you never bother anyhow, i really wish we can be friends and in touch... i mean come on we ve known each other for so long now, and we always seem to make it by to stay friends i really miss you babe take care " The thing with him s that he s a liar and a big jerk, a gorgeous one but still a jerk. So I'm not even going to bother, I will not answer. This guy's always up to no good.
The most embarassing thing happened to me today. I was downtown dropping off some papers and in the same building some months ago, I had been to see this new "showroom" and the owner was so nice to me and my sis giving us great deals... It was a saturday. The following monday I was reading the newspaper and there was his picture in an article saying that he was killed saturday night by mistake. So Sad! So today I decide to stop by what used to be his showroom, surprise it's open. I didn't think it would be. I go in and there's 2 guys, I say hi look around and ask the guy if he's the new owner. He asks me if I've been there before I say yes, he asks when, I say the day all that happened. And then, out of nowhere the tears start coming down on my face(???!!!!) I couldn't believe it. He then introduces himself, and I was so embarassed that I rushed out saying that I'll come back another time. Where did that come from?
M called again a couple of times. I was in bed watching a movie while waiting for Grey's Anatomy to begin so I sent him to voicemail. Ten minutes ago he msged me " i called u, u didn't pick up" (relax already, damn). Then, he called not even a minute after, I pick up and say that I was taking a bath, which I was prior to watching a movie. And then he starts with the questions: how come? do u do that every sunday? and i called at 7:30 or 8 why do u take ur bath so early? and i msged u too, did u not get my msg? I couldn't take it anymore so I asked: do you always ask this many questiong? what's up with that?. He then goes on about he's just asking innocent questions. I say: ya ok but you ask too many questions. He says: well only today and yesterday. I say: not really, I've been meaning to tell you about it. He then starts talking about how he's in a bad mood now and I need to get him out of it because I'm the one who did it. I answer, that's not true, I just commented on something I've noticed a while ago that shouldn't make you get in a bad mood. He then says that I am rude for saying that ( WHAT THE F??) I say that contrary to what he thinks, asking too many questions is rude. He then mumbled something I didn't understand so I said: I DON'T FEEL LIKE TALKING TO YOU NOW, PLEASE DON'T CALL ME AGAIN. And hung up!
Nothing major happened this weekend. As a matter of fact I didn't even go out last night. Around 7pm M called asking how come I didn't return his calls from the night before. I said I was sleeping he didn't believe me (yeah well) then I quickly hung up the phone because he was starting to get on my nerves. Around 8:30pm I took a nap thinking that I'd wake up in a couple of hours, which didn't happen and around midnight, my sister tried to wake me up but I was way sleeping. I woke up today at 10 something feeling very well rested (I betta) although I did wake up a couple of times in the middle of the night when V was msging me that she was at M, and then at 5 something am when P called (???) and I sent him to voicemail. Today I went shopping bought a couple ballet flats (I have a thing for them) and jewellery then went to eat. Funny thing happened, i got something that I thought was grilled shrimp but ended up being frogs'legs, thank God my mom was around right before I was going to eat them. EWWWWW. Talk about disgusting. I eat escargots but that's pretty much how risque I can be in food. In the meantime, M called saying that he went to B last night (he said he wasn't going out, so I have to remember to say something about that) I doubt he went out, I think he said it just to get back at me for saying I was going to M and not inviting him to come along. When I told him yesterday that I'm going to M he said "again" (!!!) That guy's weird he's always asking too many questions about what I did and where I'm going and it gets on my nerves It's not like I'm married to him and he's not even my bf! On another note, we started planning the summer vacation, so far there's talk about going to Spain for a few days. I love Spain I used to go there sooo much when I was younger but for some reason I stopped a few yrs ago. The plan is to go somewhere super hot, because I can't spend summer without a great tan. I'm usually off for 4 months every summer although this yr it's gonna be less but I'll do my best to spend every free day lounging by the pool or at the beach. Ahh, I can't wait for tiny summer dresses and extra cold cocktails, accessorized with a great smile and the most beautiful tan.
I am so tipsy I can barelly see straight. Anyhow, I just got back from W, where I had an amazing time as usual. When we got there S's friends were there (from a month ago whom I never called back) so I was wondering if S was there as well. Turns out he was there and it was so obvious that he wanted to talk to me, but since I never returned his calls I just ignored him. D was supposed to meet me there later and finally he showed up looking more goorgeous than ever, even my sister couldn't get over how hot he is. I hadn't seen him since november so I kinda forgot how good looking he was. He was super nice and touchy feely with me and kept on saying how hot I looked. Although by the time he got there I was so tipsy already that I couldn't even answer. Instead all I was doing was smilling non stop. I've known D for around 6 yrs now, and we dated 4 yrs ago but we always stayed in touch since we like each other so much. When I was on my way in to W, I saw A whom I dated 5 or 6 yrs ago for a short time, him, D and I went to the same school. Him too looked cuter than ever but there was a girl with him so I didn't want to say hi. Anyway, D was great and sweet as usual.He's probably the only guy I don't get mad at. How can I? He's so gorgeous. At the end of the night he drove me home and kissed me of course and all I could say was: I can't believe we're back here again! Now last night, I went out with M, yes he's back in the picture. He couldn't stop talking about how much he missed me and how gorgeous I am (what's new???!!!) and when he drove me home he just wouldn't let me go. We were supposed to meet tonight, but I woke up at 6:30am this morning and I was super tired so I took a nap in the evening, meanwhile, M and the dentist kept calling and sending msg but I didn't pick up. Tomorrow maybe I'll go to M with M (funny). I was so happy to see M last night, because let's face it, there aren't that many guys I would actually seriously date. Actually, there's nobody but him. So why not????? N's still not back which is weird since he was supposed to be back monday or tuesday!!! And he hasn't called or even msged so I wonder what's happening!!!??? Tomorrow night, everybody's supposed to be at M. With some luck, it's gonna be a blast and everything will work out the way it should. D is great but he knows that he'll never be my boyfriend, we have different religions and that plays a big role in the situation that's why I'm keeping my options open and hoping it would work out with M. This week has literally been hell for me, I had so much work to do but thank God I have monday and tuesday off and from now on I'm not supposed to be doing much outside of my regular hours. However, I just accepted a new job for this really big store that's opening in April in the city and that's gonna be taking up all my time at night and the week end, but the clothes are worth it so I'm really excited. That's about it for now, I'll let you all know how tomorrow night goes. Wish me luck dahhhlings!!!
This afternoon, I was minding my business while having coffee with some girlfriends when I got a msg on my phone:"is ur secret still safe?" Right away, I knew it was from lil'P he then continued to msg me for the next half hour, asking if I'm going to M or not and everytime I'd msg trying to say bye he'd msg by telling me about something else in his life. WHAT THE F????? And as if him msging wasn't enough, after the second msg, V sent me one too so I started freaking out thinking that she's the one msging me from his cell phone. I then called her but she was just asking about a meeting I was supposed to have in the afternoon. It was so stressful. I asked lil'P if she was with him, he said no. (Ouff). But something tells me, it's not the end of the story, I have a feeling tjat guy's up to something not so good... Yesterday, I was supposed to meet up with D at night but he ended up finishing work too late and I was busy working on something myself, so it didn't work out. When he called yesterday afternoon asking about my "bf" I told him that I didn't have one, that I was just seeing someone and that he (D) jinxed it so much that even that didn't work out. He then said that he was happy and that he's going to take me out to make it up to me. Okkkayy!! We finally finished the models selection, 10 guys and 65 girls. Lucky girl that I am, I'm in charge of the guys, yes all of 10 of them.Eat your heart out girls! The dentist has been calling non-stop lately, of course I don't pick up. He called twice this evening only; and when I checked my emails a few minutes ago, there was one from him saying that he's going to be in town in a month exactly. Again, okkkayy!! For the past few weeks, I've been feeling like something is about to happen. Something good. Let's just hope I'm right because I am on the verge of becoming desperate. I'm gonna go ahead and say it now, but only once. Okay, here it goes: I Want A Boyfriend! AHHH!!!!I can't believe I actually meant it. It must be my lack of sleep and the fact that I'm exhausted that's playing with my head.I'm gonna go put it in the fridge and let it cool off overnight, maybe by tomorrow it would've cooled off enough to snap out of the whole bf thing.
I just got back from another night out. We started off by going to the opening of this new supperclub called Crazy Horse. But it was the same people as I've seen around for years now and we weren't really having that much fun so we decided to go to M. We get there around 1:30am, I spot P and the crew and try to stay as far away as possible which is hard to do since I have to go say hi to the dj and P's right next to him. I was in such a good mood, ready to party just like last night when we went to W and had an amazing time. I met tons of guys and almost hooked up with a guy from there M, who's from Chile and not Italy like I thought. He kept on going on and on about how gorgeous I am and how amazing my eyes are and we danced together for a while and at the end when we were about to leave, he so wanted to kiss me but there was a lot of people around and I wouldn't have let him considering he works there and I still wanna go back. In the meantime when he was gushing about my fabulousness my sister kept on saying:" you like her huh?" never mind you, we were both kinda drunk. But it was pretty obvious that he liked me. D called right after I had left W. and knew that I had a bit too much to drink but he was soooo sweet. I have to see him this week. Tonight, one more time at M, I was looking around when I spotted lil' P (V's bf), I go up to him and he' s like:" you're not supposed to be here, you're supposed to be at the opening of that new place" so I say: "guess you're busted again". Knowing that if he's there without her, it only means she doesn't know about it. I had a great time at M, and from now on I'm only going there on saturdays and nowhere else. I feel so at home there. I was cheering with my sister and P came to us saying:" me too, me too" my sister turned to me saying:"be nice". Then, lil' P started asking about what went wrong with P so I told him that he wasn't my type and that I never wanted to date him and I was just pressured into doing that. Which is true. Lil' P wanted to give us a ride, I said yes!!! Still no news from M, although I'm sure I'm going to hear from him soon. Nobody can get that upset for a simple little lie!
So as you all know, yesterday was audition day and yours truly was the judge. As usual there were hundreds of people, I guess everybody was wishing for their 15mns of fame. Before it was even time to start, we had people waiting outside. We started off with a girl who's 5'3 (was that a joke???) what the hell am I supposed to do with a girl that short? And she said she models all the time yet she tripped on her pants while doing the walk. As what she's too short even for her own pants. Next came this really weird guy, I saw him when I got out of the room to go to the washroom and I thought "Hell No" and I was right, he sucked and was overdoing everything. From then on, one after another it was only Nos from me. One of them came in asking who's the Simon Cowell. Umm, me!? Then we started getting some not so bad girls who could walk and had great bodies and the same for guys. A girl came in and presented her portfolio and she looked great in it. I couldn't deny it, but oh my god she was so bad while walking and looked nothing like the pictures and was 15yrs old. I don't work with kids. She was wearing a gown, with a long train and gold sandals. Her dress was literally see through and her underwear which was red, was there for everyone to see. 15 yrs old, people. I liked the guys, they were nervous and those who weren't had attitude which gets them a no from me. Overall it was really good.Tomorrow, we're reviewing everyone's sheet to see if we need a second audition.
Monday always means getting back to work. And today's a busy day since it's audition day. Models will be coming in to audition for a big show. Hopefully I won't be writing down a lot of NOs. Usually on audition day, around 300 models come in so we're expecting around that today also. I start in a few hours and finish around 9pm, I'm gonna be so beat by the time it's over. Plus, V can't make it, so I have to cover for her since she's stuck in NYC because of the blizzard. She said she's gonna do her best to be there for 5pm but I doubt it. If you're wondering how nice I am to the models well here's your answer: I am very nice but extremelly picky. Nothing gets past me. If they call themselves models they better look like models and be ready to work it and own that runway. I'll let you guys know how it all went since I'm sure there's going to be a lot to tell you. Ciao Ciao
You wouldn't believe what happened last night! Afternoon, M calls to say that he has to see me at night. I wasn't planning on going out so we decide to meet at 9:30pm. We get to the movies at 9:50pm everything's great he can't stop the "you look so good..." and I can't stop smiling. We saw Match Point,Jonathan Rhys-Meyers is simply great in it. While at the movies, my sister kept msging me asking if I was going to M after, I kept on saying no. When the movie ended I went to the washroom and spoke to her, they were on their way to M with some of P's friends. I said maybe I'll meet her there after. So when I was in the car with M, I said that I had to get home early. He knew that my sis was going to M. We get to my place and he wouldn't let me leave asking for just 10 more minutes. I tell him that I really have to go and we agree that he's going to call me today. It's then 12:30am and I'm rushing to get ready to go to M. Of course, I couldn't find anything to wear, so it took me a while to finish. I get a cab and head to M. On my way there I get a msg from D, saying that he's going to another place!!! 1:30am,I finally get to M, it's happening as usual and P's there with the group. Drink and dance for a bit, 2:10am exactly I go to the washroom with my sis, check my phone a msg from M. Check this my friends 'cuz I couldn't believe it: "I knew you were going to M, you didn't have to lie" . WHAT THE F?????? I msg him back :"hey come, my sis called she really wanted me to be here" Then another one: "u should come " No answer to neither of them, I think of something and msg him: "Nevermind then, guess you re the one who actually lied" I said that because he said he was going to his friend's place then going home. So if he saw me, which now that I'm thinking about it, could've been when I was getting out the cab to get in M and there was a car honking and I thought it's because of traffic. Maybe it was him. Anyway, if he saw me, that means he was out and not at his friend's place so that makes him the liar. Genius, isn't it?? But I know that he's gonna get over it and call me, eventually. He simply cannot not to. As if that wasn't enough, P came up to me AGAIN, yes yes do believe it, he just doesn't give up. Talking about how I DID him bad,... I'm thinking whatever, get over it. And to sum it all up, couple of his friends were staring at me all night, and at the end, 2 of them came up to me one by one trying to talk to me. One of them actually said I really hope to see you here next week. It's sooo nice to meet you. With a big grin on his face. I'm thinking of putting a warning, " If you care about your heart, stay away". At 3am, D calls. I was still at M. We talk for a while, he says that he wanna see me really bad this week but afraid that my "BF" will call him and yell at him... I tell him that I don't have a bf and that I'm just seeing someone very casually so we should definitly hook up. He's gorgeous, I can't help it. So we decide that we'll meet up this week for sure, he wants to show me his new tattoos anyway, and I'm a sucker for tats. :)
Next time I say I'm staying home, I should actually Do It. As usual, I ended up out. Around 6pm, M called asking to see me later on. I said that I'm planning on staying home or maybe go the movies. He was going to call me around 10pm so we can decide what to do. At 8pm, my sister convinces me to go to a friend's place where everybody will be before we all go out. It didn't really take much convincing before I said yes. O2 (my friend V's bf's friend) called to know what my plan for the night was. I said I might go to B. 10pm, on the dot, M starts calling. Of course I didn't pick up and he didn't leave a msg. He called 4 times after that. Tomorrow I'll just say I was sleeping and hopefully he'll want to go out for dinner only, because I really don't feel like going to M and having to see P. When we were at the friend's place, O2 msg me saying he's going to B and that he'll pick me up to go there. I said ok since he lives nearby. 11:45pm we get going, there was a big group of us so when we got to B, it was 12:15am. We get in and I see O1 ( the one who's always all over me). Now with O1 and O2 there, I knew I was going to have a hell of work to do. It turned out that O2's group, O1's group, and the friends we were with all had tables next to each other. How lucky am I??? O1 was staring to see how close I was getting with O2, compared to how close I don't get when he's around. O2 was getting too close but he's so sweet I can't tell him off. O1 later on comes to me to say hi and literally begs me to call him. I say yes, because I simply can't say " No I won't" that's too mean. Although, when he grabbed my hand to dance, I did pull away and told him to just stop. Aghh, I can't stand him touching me. O2 asked what I was doing for Vday, I said I'm not celebrating. However, I have a feeling I'm going to get an invite from him...to be continued. O1 was walking by to keep an eye on me, every 10 mns and O2 bought me a rose, I told you guys he's sweet. We left early compared to usual because I was so tired and my feet were killing me. Damn those high heels. Now I'm sure V's bf will hear about tonight from O2 who is obviously on the same path as so many others. He likes me but I like him as a friend only. I told my sister when we went to the washroom that it's not my fault what's happening with these guys and that I do feel bad. And it's true. Except when I give obvious signs of me not being interested and they keep on trying and trying, now that pisses me off. It's what O1 does. My sister's advice? Never say no and always leave them some hope...
Someone sent me this list, I thought I'd share it with you. Let me know what you think.
The Guys' Rules At last a guy has taken the time to write this all down Finally, the guys' side of the story. (I must admit, it's pretty good.) We always hear "the rules" From the female side. Now here are the rules from the male side. These are our rules! Please note... these are all numbered "1" ON PURPOSE! 1. Men are not mind readers. * 1. Learn to work the toilet seat. You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down. We need it up, you need it down. You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down. 1. Sunday sports. It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides. Let it be. 1. Shopping is NOT a sport. And no, we are never goingto think of it that way. 1. Crying is blackmail. 1.The relationship is never going to be like it was the first two months we were going out. Get over it. And quit whining to your girlfriends. 1. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one: Subtle hints do not work! Strong hints do not work! Obvious hints do not work! Just say it! 1. Yes and No are perfectly Acceptable answers to almost every question. 1. Come to us with a problem only If you want help solving it. That's what we do. Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for. 1.Don't cut your hair. Ever. Long hair is always more attractive than short hair. One of the big reasons guys fear getting married is that married women always cut their hair, and by then you're stuck with her. 1. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a problem. See a doctor. 1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument. In fact, all comments become null and void after 7 Days. 1.Birthdays, Valentines, and Anniversaries are not considered by us to be opportunities to see if we can find the perfect present . . . . again! 1. If you won't dress like the Victoria's Secret girls, don't expect us to act like soap opera guys. 1.Sometimes we are not thinking about you. Live with it. 1. If you think you're fat, you probably are. Don't ask us. 1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one. 1. You can either ask us to do something OR tell us how you want it done. Not both. If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself. 1. Whenever possible, Please say whatever you have to say during commercials. .. 1. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we. 1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings. Peach, for example, is a fruit, not a color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is. 1. If it itches, it will Be scratched. We do that. 1. If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing," We will act like nothing's wrong. We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle. 1. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, Expect an answer you don't want to hear. 1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear Is fine...Really. 1. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as baseball, the shotgun formation, or golf. 1. You have enough clothes. 1. You have too many shoes. 1. I am in shape. Round IS a shape! 1. Thank you for reading this. Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight; But did you know men really don't mind that? It's like camping.
It's friday, my favorite day, I finally get to relax this week end...or not. At exactly 8:30am this morning, I got Valentine's day candy. Very sweet thing! Thanx D.M Now, I don't even want to start thinking about V.day; I usually make a big fuss about it and it almost always turns out a big flop. So this year, I didn't make plans. It's weird, I was telling a friend of mine, that for the first time I'm whatever about the whole thing. Don't get me wrong I still like the whole idea, but I'd rather have it every day, all year long instead of ONE day. Like what, girls should feel special one day only??? How crazy is that? I want to feel special everyday, to be honest, one day just doesn't do it for me. The thing is, most of us start celebrating in the evening only, so let's say you go out for dinner, which is gonna be at least 2hrs, plus desert, because for onc you're taking your time, enjoying each other and perhaps the food. By the time you finish it's 10:30pm-11pm, so you probably, go home exchange gifts ...Then it's already late and you've gotta get to bed because you have to wake up early. And that's the part I hate. In the past, many a time, by the time dinner ended I was so tired that I literally crashed on the sofa. Honestly, nobody wants to go through all the trouble of planning a big thing if the gf's gonna be doing sleeping beauty, live. But, I was a lucky girl because it happened that my ex didn't take it so badly, considering how excited I was pryor to the sleeping part. But, I've had my share of V.days. From the apartment filled with tiny candles with my gifts right in the middle, to the double date thing ( a no-no) to the "we're all single, let's go party instead". M, hasn't mentioned V.day but I'm presuming he doesn't even know it's coming up which is alright by me, I know he's busy that day and the next even more so I'm not expecting anything from him. Maybe we'll do something this week end instead, we'll see. When I told my friend he probably doesn't know it's Vday she said I should dump him. I said no, I'm not gonna dump a guy who's overall good, because he probably doesn't know about Valentine's day. Euhh, I stopped being that shallow a while ago. Conclusion, this year I am not doing anything. Or should I say I am not planning anything and not expecting anything to happen. But I assume you probably know me by now, and you must've guessed that I don't really mean that. wink wink:).
Thursday night... These days I'm having trouble sleeping, I get in bed and pouf, I can't sleep. So I got up to get a bottle of water and thought maybe I should post something. Nothing much happened this week really, I spoke to M wednesday night. He called of course (I never call him) asking how I'm doing, blah blah blah. After a bit, he told me he had to go because his friend was next to him waiting to go to the gym. So I told him to not call me next time if there's gonna be people waiting for him. He started laughing, but I was serious. Tomorrow's friday, I'm planning on taking it slow this week-end, I don't really feel like going out but you never know. Ok, I have to be up in less than 6 hrs so I'm gonna try to get some sleep now. Goodnight everybody!
A couple hours ago, I get a phone msg. It's D saying that his friend saw me at M on saturday and called to tell him but when he got there he couldn't find me. He called me after and we talked, he asked if I was seeing someone and I said yeah kinda and he didn't seem too pleased. The thing is we dated in 2002 for a short time but I adore him, he's so sweet and sooo damn gorgeous. Even guys find him hot! He asked me if the guy was italian and I said no he's not, I don't date italians. I then sensed that he didn't like my answer. He said that we should meet this week to catch up since I haven't seen him since november, but if I ever meet him, how would I be able to resist???
I hate sundays. Mainly because by the time it's sunday, the week end is over and it's time to get ready for another long week. But also because I find them so depressing, and I'm usually in a bad mood because of the lack of sleep from the night before. Now for the usual week end night update. M called thursday, I knew he just needed time to cool off. He said that I ditched him on saturday and that he had a feeling that I wasn't interested in him, but he miised me so much that he had to see me asap. I told him no for thursday but maybe yes for friday. Friday night, I wasn't in the mood to see him so I said I couldn't. Instead I went to B, which was packed, then C for a few drinks then M. P was there and he kept staring. But I made sure to be surrounded by people at all times this way he can't get to me. On saturday, I met up with M at 9:15pm, I had about 15 mns to get ready and was going nuts because I couldn't find anything to wear. Of course. We decided, or should I say I decided, to go to this restaurant/bar, a few doors from M; where we were going to end up anyway. I hadn't been to that bar in a long long time and I forgot how nice that place was. We were there for about 2hrs talking about everything, from politics to religion to love. Basically all the topics we probably shouldn't be talking about on a saturday night. He was looking really cute. Actually, he was cuter than I remembered him to be :). Of course he didn't stop complimenting me and saying really really sweet things; and I'm working on accepting those compliments instead of asking him to stop. We get to M, afterwards and it's already happening. At first there was just him and I, my sister and friends were supposed to join us after. And I couldn't help but notice how unlike many other guys, M doesn't stare at other girls. In fact he only had eyes for me and was all over me. Everything was going great until P and his group got there, and I started stressing because P was actually standing on his toes to get a look at us on the other side and I really DID see that. Everytime I'd turn I'd catch him staring at us. It's weird but he really scares me. Like everytime he would pass by us with one of his friends, I'd actually be afraid he might do something. I think I should just lay low for a while and stop going to M until he gets over the whole thing. Maybe that's the best thing to do. At the end of the night, M said that from now on I should be the one deciding on the plans and he'll make them happen. Anything I want he'll make it happen. It's weird but I think I'm starting to think that he could actually become my boyfriend. Ahhh, I don't wana rush anything so I've been cutting back on my answers whether to his comments like when he says he missed me, or he likes me so much or when he calls me. Like today for instance, he already called twice and left a msg but I didn't pick up. I do realize that it's a little game I'm playing, but it's better like this I think. This way things don't get too boring.
Ps: Did I mention that O ( V's bf's friend) called twice today also? I picked up the second time and we talk for a bit but by the time I hung up I still didn't know why he called. He mentioned that he wanted to go to the movies tonight, that could the reason why !!! Weird.
Update: Am on the phone with him right now, he called again. He's saying that although his has tons of work this week, I am his top priority. And he wants to see me no matter what and wants to talk to me everyday. I'm thinking..okkkayyy but I have tons of work also so I don't think I'll be able to see you before the week-end. The fashion world's not as easy going as it looks, when there's work to be done, it just has to be done.
My life is filled with daily bizarre adventures. Whether they're about, fashion, love, life or something else they're always very entertaining and mostly umpredictable. But that's what makes it all so exciting.
Disclaimer: All the real names of places,people and events have been altered or abbreviated to protect the innocent. Namely, me.
