Friday, March 31, 2006

Mo Situation

Yesterday while I was home nursing my very possible broken toe, I emailed Mo (ex from the day before). Here's what I wrote: i just wanna give u my email address in case i misplace ur card and we d have to wait to meet coincidently 2 yrs from now.
2 mns later I get a reply: It was really good seeing you after all these years. We'll keep in touch aiiight?? we could go out and chill... I noticed that you changed your perfume, u know, u used to put that man's perfume... hmmm I forgot the name... Anyways, talk to u soon ciao bella!
I answer with this: i forgot to give u my number. we should definitly meet up sooner rather than later. and i can t believe u remembered the cologne i used to wear. le male by jean paul gaultier. :)
A minute later, I get a msg on my phone saying: hello it's jpg, now you have my number 2. I answer with: u're so quick, it's crazy :) I like it. He then sends me a wink.
Now starts the oh so dreaded process of waiting for him to call to ask me out. Not that I can do much going out these days since I'm literally limping. Today I went back to work, I can't afford taking days off, already that I didn't do anything yesterday and I was feeling so bad about it. I'm also supposed to be working saturday and sunday all day, but V's driving me to the doctor in a couple of hours and I'm hoping to get a note from him saying that I can't do much. This way I can enjoy my week end...at home (hopefully somewhere else too).

posted by LUX @ 3/31/2006 10:26:00 AM 0 comments

Thursday, March 30, 2006

More Chaos

So we get to the terrasse, the hostess is taking us to our table when someone calls up my name and it's my ex's (the one i don t talk about) friend. I say hi and do the small polite talk then go sit at our table. We order drinks and talk for hours before R and her friend C join us. By then I was tipsy because I hadn't had lunch befire and with a couple drinks I was done. We have more drink while laughing and making jokes, then C gets a call from a friend who was at this hot bar across the street of the one we were at, so we decide to go. We get there and it's not packed or anything but I notice that C's friend was with my friends, very good friends actually. By then I was a bit more than tipsy and super hyper for some reason. I say hi to my friends and they're wondering why I'm in such a good mood, R jumps in and says that the nice weather makes us happy (yeah right). Then M (from previous post, who was at W) comes to say hi and what do I do? I turn to my friend A and tell him ughh this guy is so stuck up!!!!!!!!!! M of course offended, turns and leaves before I can say anything else. We then sit and hang out for an hour or so before all of us decide that it's time to leave. But the night didn't end there. In the car, R sees a cute guy doing the line up to go in some irish bar, she asks him to come talk to her. He obeys. After 5 mns, she decides that he s cute and starts kissing him. The poor guy didn't understand what was going on nor did his friends. He had his head in the car through the window and some strange girl was kissing him. Once done, we leave only to have R drive around again to make out with the guy some more.
After 10 mns, we finally leave and I finally get home, drunk but safe. My head was turning and for some reason I started playing with my sister's dog and lo' and behold' I bump into the wall and tragically hurt my pinky toe. I damn the dog and go to bed limping. At 4:30 in the morning I wake up and notice that my toe's swollen and kinda blue. Not able to walk, I just stay home for the day, and just my luck, my phone doesn't stop ringing all day long.

posted by LUX @ 3/30/2006 11:29:00 AM 0 comments

Chaos

Can someone remind me to never say I'm bored. Ever again. I couldn't sleep last night, been up since 4:30am. Yesterday was full of events, what am I saying, it was chaotic.
At around 4pm V and I decide to go shopping and enjoy the sunny afternoon. Once done, we wanted to have a drink somewhere. I had spoken to my friend R and she said she was gonna meet us later with a friend of hers.
We get out the car and start walking when I saw my ex from probably 6 yrs ago talking on the phone. He looked gorgeous. I tell V to not look his way and as we walk past him I can tell he's looking at me. As we were about to cross the street, she starts telling me that he was looking at me straight in the eye (i had shades on), that's when I felt like someone was behind us. He followed us. He bumped into me on purpose and said so L you snob me now?
Me, lying of course, I say...ohh hiiii, I didn t see you, how are you?. He then kisses me hi and hugs me and I'm thinking he's so cute and he followed me!!!!
We talk for a bit, he asks to see my eyes and then comments about how we meet just like that on the street every couple of years. Then he asked me if the next time we see other it's going to be a coincidence again. I said yes and giggled like a school girl (wat the F???), totally ignorant of the fact that he wanted to exchange numbers or something. Because right after, he gave me his business card and I said that I wasn't going to call him (!!!!!) He laughed and said that I should email him then. I giggled, he laughed,we hugged and he left.
V then went on and on about how nervous I was and it shows when I start giggling but that I was cute and he was gorgeous. Yes he was. He changed so much. Last time I saw him, he was soo young, still going to college. Just different. Now he's an accountant for a big firm, is dressed to kill and carries a briefcase. So weird.

I'll tell the rest of the story later.

posted by LUX @ 3/30/2006 09:03:00 AM 2 comments

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Boring, Bored and Boredom

The sun is shining on my back as am typing this post. I really don't have anything new to tell you guys. It's a bummer I know, but what can you do?
I stopped reading the horoscope this week, I don't believe in it anymore. For the past month or so it's been saying that I'm gonna meet the man of my dreams blah blah blah and nothing happened, so I figured I'm not gonna read it anymore since it's not happening.
Am so bored that I've been making friends from back home through the net, it's mostly people I've already seen before or went to school with when I was still there. To tell you the truth I'm just trying to find ways to talk to people, make friends,... Am soooo bored.
I'm supposed to go this club tonight for a 3 yrs anniversary, but it's not for sure yet. I'll let you guys know if anything happens.

posted by LUX @ 3/28/2006 03:13:00 PM 0 comments

Monday, March 27, 2006

Same Old, Same Old

It's monday night, I finished late tonight ( still working on that big fashion show, am tired and I have a stomachache). My week end was good. Friday I was up from 7am until about 4am the next day. The show was not as good as I was expecting it to be. The guys were cute and the girls were bitchy but hey what's new, right? When it finished everybody went to the after party but true to myself I went to W, where I had a blast. Considering I was looking pretty hot, it couldn't have been anything but a blast.Saturday, I went shopping before going to work, then had a quite night at home with tons of movies. The best plan ever, since I'm pretty much bored of everything these days. I woke up rested and in a great mood to do some more shopping. The weather was beautiful, I could barelly keep my clothes on.
The dentist was calling all week planning on coming down to visit but since I didn't answer, he decided not to. Thank God. I'm in no mood to deal with guys these days. Seriously.

posted by LUX @ 3/27/2006 11:21:00 PM 0 comments

Friday, March 24, 2006

The Ex Files


After a very long day yesterday, I checked my emails and found one from friendster or something like that. In fact, it was my ex (the one I don't talk about) that sent me a friend request, I later accepted it, after much thinking. He had sent me one a long time ago but I rejected it. I wonder what this is all about. I don't really wanna be friends with him.
Tonight I'm helping a friend out for her show, a bunch of us girls will be there, we all kinda know eachother. It's supposed to be fun, so we'll see what's gonna happen.
In the meantime, I can't wait to go out after the show, you all know how much I love friday nights at W.
Wink, wink...

posted by LUX @ 3/24/2006 10:23:00 AM 0 comments

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

Where is the LOVE???

Today I've been kind of depressed. I actually cried this morning. And this whole sadness thing just hit me out of nowhere. Maybe because nothing's happening in the romantic area of my life and that gets to me. No matter how good everything else is, I just don't feel right if there isn't love around. And right now, there isn't. You hear abour Dr Phil talking about how a relationship shouldn't define you, but in my case it would. And truth to be told, I have absolutely no problem with it. I feel better when I'm loved and cared about by someone other than my family or friends. Someone like a boyfriend. What does that say about me??? A lot I'm sure, and I know it all. What gets to me is that there is nothing nowhere, or rather nobody, nowhere. There isn't even a hint of a possibility. Nope, there is...nothing, nada,nichts, niente, and it goes on and on in all the other languages. I don't know what to do anymore and I'm sooo tired of people asking how come I don't have a boyfriend and me saying I don't know. And they just don't believe that I'm single and think that I'm lying or something. Go figure!!!!
I think my problem's that I'm looking for something or someone that doesn't exist. Too many movies, too many romance novels and you start thinking that love is always perfect and nothing less is worth it. I want mr perfect, yet I know that I myself am not perfect, but I want HIM to be. How crazy is that, really??? Does that even make sense??? Should I demand something I can't offer myself??? When I think about it, I'm really not looking for something out of the ordinary, I know it. It's not like I'm thinking I want a millionaire and I want him to be flying me around the world or buying me huge yellow diamond rings. Nooo, I'm not like that. It has more to do with the inside and to me that's the hardest thing to find.
What do you all think?? Are there any girls out there in the same situation?

posted by LUX @ 3/21/2006 09:45:00 PM 1 comments

Showtime!


The show was yesterday and it was fabulous. Around 700 people were there, lots of celebs and it was chaos backstage. With a camera crew filming everything raw to be shown at the afterparty and on tv. I was on my best behavior, most of the time anyway. But overall everything went smoothly. I always wish fashion shows would last longer, at least long enough to be worth all the work that is put in them. But what can you do!
After the show, I has just hanging out with my family and my friend N. The VIP area was so cozy I couldn't get myself to get up and leave. But ultimatly we did leave only to go to the afterparty at W!!!! We sat there for a while just talking and having a drink, but I couldn't stay late because I was soooo tired and just wanted to go to bed.


ps: As promised you guys get to see a pic from backstage

posted by LUX @ 3/21/2006 09:20:00 AM 0 comments

Sunday, March 19, 2006

Strut


Well well well it's sunday today and I'm feeling so relaxed. Maybe because I slept for so long last night.
Friday, after a very long day, my best friend N and I decide to go for a drink somewhere really cheap and dirty just the two of us. We're already downtown, but it's jam packed everywhere since it's St Patrick and there are major line ups at every pub. After about 10mns, we finally find a bar called Jumbo's that looks pretty irish from the outside, we take a look at the inside and it's clean. We go in, go to the bar try to get the barman's attention and order 2 gin tonics. The crowd is older which means no drunk school kids. We're looking for a spot where to sit and there's only one stool in front of us. N gets another one and we end up sitting behing these guys who lo' and behold are Uni kids.I start telling her about my date when they introduce themselves and ask to buy us shots. N and I look at each other and say ok. We bought the 1st drinks, that's enough for one night. I then resume my conversation with N... we order 2 more drinks and then other irish guys buy us 2 more rounds all the while N and I are cracking up and she's telling me how she thinks that H guy is stupid. She knows him. My sister joins us and we drink some more. By the time we left I was kinda drunk and we decide to go to W, but stop by our place to change. At W, it's happening and there's more drinking. Unfortunatly I have to wake up early the next day so we decide to leave at 2am and once home I felt sooo sick I couldn't sleep.
Next morning I wake up at 7:30am feeling very very sick. Get dressed quickly and run out of the door. I get to work at 8:30am, everybody's working already getting everything ready for fittings. Models start coming in and there's a lot of running around all day until around 5pm when I finally finished. All this time, I didn't even sit down to eat and I was feeling like I was going to faint at any minute. Thang God it didn't happen and I did such a great job that people were talking about me and how impressed they were. That was the point!
Now tomorrow's DDAY I start early and finish late. I'm so excited, I'll tell you guys all about it after the show :) Heck I'll be nice and even post some pictures
Wish me luck dahhlings!

posted by LUX @ 3/19/2006 05:33:00 PM 0 comments

Thursday, March 16, 2006

1st Date With H

After almost a week, H & I finally went on a date. We were actually supposed to meet yesterday, but I cancelled at the last minute because I couldn't find anything to wear. Instead, we just talked on the phone and decided that we're going to meet today no matter what. So, this afternoon while I was busy figuring out the dresses I was working on for so long and that were driving me crazy, I got a msg from H saying that we should definitly meet today at 6:30pm. Euhhh!!!!??? That's too early. I suggest 7:30pm.
I finished around 5pm, got home half hour later. Went straight to take a shower, got out, had 2 slices of very yummy pizza (homemade, but not by me) quickly dried my hair. The initial plan was to have it wavy with volume but that didn't work out. Surprisingly it took me a while to find something to wear, only to end up with what I had on in the begining. But I added boots and my super nice C bag. Was somewhat satisfied with the result as I don't like to look overdone nor do I like to look underdressed. Just enough effort. Sprayed some perfume on and was out of the door, by the time he picked me up, it was 7:36pm.
We went to this really cool place I went with M to, about a month ago. Dim lighting, nice red '60s round chairs, very mellow music and big screen playing old movies. At first, he sat across the table from me and I sat with my legs crossed to the side and had my arms crossed but then I thought that I was probably not giving the right signals (thanx Dr Phil) so I tried to uncross my arms. I had iced tea, he had lychee martini (!!!!).We talked but every now and then he'd just go somewhere in his head (I could tell). I thought he was bored but he later said that he sometimes starts thinking about work. I told him that if he's out with me, his mind better be there too. He laughed.On our second drink, gin tonic for me another lychee martini for him (!!!); he stood up and came to sit down next to me. He then put his arm around my shoulders and was telling me about what he likes and dislikes.... Later on, he kissed my hand and I laughed for a minute because it was too cheesy. Couple of hours later he asked for the check, took it from the waitress and made sure to turn away from me in order to pay. Which I have to admit was winning him points because there's nothing I hate more than guys who bring out their money right in front of you.
We get in the car and while driving he tells me that I'm nothing like he thought I would be (no!!! really?). Apparently I'm like a Barbie. With the exception that I'm smart. Alrighty then. And that he's very impressed. (Guess I passed the test)
We get to my place and I'm about to get out of the car and he says to call him. I tell him that there's no protocole here, that if he feels like calling me he should just do it. He says that he likes my way of thinking, I answer by saying that I'm cool like that. I kiss him bye on the cheeks and leave.

Update: As soon as I got in bed, I got a text msg from H. No goodnight?.Couple of minutes later, he called to wish me goodnight with the have a great day tomorrow. We then talked about the week end and he mentioned that he had a training sunday at 8am but that he can go out sat, until 1am (hint hint). He said to call him Friday night when I finish work, but once again, I told him to just call me when he finishes his training at 10pm. Go figure what this guy wants!!!!

posted by LUX @ 3/16/2006 11:09:00 PM 0 comments

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

H...

I'm so glad it's already wednesday. Although this friday I won't be going out, I have fittings at 8am the next day for Fashion Week that starts monday. The show I'm working at opens the week so it's a big deal. Lots of press...
This week H & I have been msging and talking on the phone. Sometimes he emails me from work. He's a project engineer for a really big company. My exboyfriend (the one I don't like to talk about) is an engineer too. M, the one who got on my nerves does civil engineering. It's all engineers. It's like I have this thing that only attracts engineers for some reason.
Back to H, I told him yesterday that he looks familiar for some reason and he didn't say anything but I know that he knows who I am. His ex girlfriend was my ex boyfriend's really good friend at Uni. And H and my ex lived in the same building. So I really, really doubt that he has no clue who I am!!! Also, the fact that I know that he cheated on his ex (she told my ex) makes me a bit annoyed. But I figured I can't judge him on that only. Or can I?

posted by LUX @ 3/15/2006 11:39:00 AM 0 comments

Monday, March 13, 2006

Rain

Nothing's worse than starting off the week with a rainy day. It's depressing and bad for the hair.
The week-end however was great, or at least most of it. Friday at W was amazing. Lots of friends there, had too many drinks and too much fun. All of us. Some of us did things we weren't too proud of the next day but it's alright...
Saturday V was having problems with her boyfriend lil P. So we decided to have a girls night out and went to dinner at M knowing perfectly well that her bf was going to show up with his friends. It was by far the most boring night, mainly because it was like V was a statue. She barelly talked or moved. It was just boring, boring, boring. So boring that I left early. Since when does that happen???
I have a feeling this week's going to be a long one. Tonight I'm supposed to go out with H, whom I met at W; couple weeks ago. But I'm not so sure about that, I don't like to go out when it's raining. But then again you never know.
I'll keep you guys posted...


Update: Instead of going out, I went to bed with Joaquin Phoenix, well it was more a movie he was in but still...

posted by LUX @ 3/13/2006 08:53:00 PM 1 comments

Monday, March 06, 2006

Emotional Failures


I think I'm going crazy. Or maybe the lack of romance is getting to me. I just finished watching The Notebook. I've seen it before so I knew what to expect, but still...
Am so annoyed. I go out I meet guys but they're all wrong, wrong wrong. I'm tired of meeting the wrong ones while looking for the right one. WHERE IS HE??? Come on, how much longer do I still have to do this for? And I can't lock myself up at home and not go out because with that goes my chance of meeting him all together. Yet, I'm just tired of going out and not finding him.
I also have a hard time believing that all the guys I dated were wrong. That not even one could have been the right one. But at the same time, wouldn't it be stupid if I actually did have the right one and let him go??
If you're single and you take a moment to think about the people you dated in the past, you might decide to stick with the good memories; just like you might decide to remember the bad ones.No matter how you want to look at it, there is no denial. The list of names doesn't prove how good looking, smart, funny and great you are. No. It just proves how many failures you've got. Emotional failures but failures, still.
And once you realize that, you're ready to make a change and not fail at something that should be so easy yet seems so hard. Because it is easy to love. It just seems hard at first since a lot of people don't want to work at it. I am not talking about hard labor work, no. Because it shouldn't be extra hard. What I'm talking about is, working towards the same goal and sharing the same love.
And if you've got those two ingredients then you're without a doubt, love's best chef.

posted by LUX @ 3/06/2006 10:52:00 PM 0 comments

Come On Baby Light My Fire


Today, one of the models called to confirm for a practice in the evening. He mentioned that he was going to be late because he wanted to go home, change, then come to the meeting. I told him that we already picked him and it wouldn't matter what he was wearing. But he said that he wasn't going to be confortable and that he had to get out of his uniform. Just out of curiosity I asked him what kind of job he does, his answer..."Am a firefighter". For a minute, my heart stopped and I couldn't talk, until he said "Are you there?". I couldn't believe it. I've always had a thing for firefighters and it was just too crazy that he was one.
He then asked if he should bring anything, like flowers or chocolate, for picking him. I said no just bring yourself and keep that stuff for your girlfriend, to which he answered " Oh, I don't have one".
I asked him how old he was and with that came the disapointment. He was 21!

posted by LUX @ 3/06/2006 10:25:00 PM 1 comments

GORGEOUS X 2



Back to reality. The week end passes by so fast, it always seems like it's just a couple of hours when in fact it's a couple of days.
Friday night as usual we went to W. A bunch of girlfriends of mine were going as well and it seemed like it was going to be fun. My sis and I got there around 1am, everybody was already there waiting for us. My friend N, was already out of it and she kept on introducing me to different guys. Everybody was offering drinks and
I was there for barelly 5mns. It was really packed and we all wanted to have fun which we did.
We danced, drank, and drank some more. Everybody was super friendly and in a good mood. After a while this guy who was somebody's friend started to talk to me and after a few minutes I figured out who he was. H, was my ex boyfriend's friend's exboyfriend. They broke up a while ago. He asked me out for saturday and we exchanged numbers at the end of the night.
By the time we left W, I was so smashed it took me the whole next day to finally feel a bit better. When I got home, lil P (V's bf) called asking where I went that night because him and the guys ended up going to B thinking that I'd be there!!!!!
The next day I couldn't eat anything, I was trying to get over my hang over.Nevertheless at night, we went for dinner at M with V, her bf lil P, his friend A (looser) my sis and I. Then O1 came after, and so did P and the crew. It was fun mainly because I was kinda still drunk and was in a great mood.
When I was getting ready to go to M, H, from W called asking me out but no can do. Yesterday he sent me a couple msgs. I was too busy drooling over Joaquin Phoenix and Eric Bana at the Oscars.
This morning I woke up to a text msg from N
who's still away!!

posted by LUX @ 3/06/2006 03:33:00 PM 0 comments

Thursday, March 02, 2006

Teenage Love's The Best

My cousin's daughter who is probably 16 now has a boyfriend. To all our surprise, she seems more in love than anybody else I know or ever knew for that matter. For some time now whenever she's online, she has these romantic quotes about love and loving someone... Myself, just like my mom and sister thought that there wasn't anything behind all that; until she started promoting her new blog. Being my curious self, I decided to check it out. And, oh dear God was I shocked. Read this and weep my single dahhlings.
The blog was in fact hers as well as her bf's. It is dedicated to their love and their relationship, every single post is a poem either her or him has written about/for the other. Poems and short stories, so romantic that while reading, I thought that what I've ever experienced was nothing compared to what they're living. I'd have posted some lines but they're all in french and I'm too lazy to translate.
From what I gathered they have met about a year ago, and have been in love since then. Which is totally crazy because when I asked my mom about her (she saw her recently), my mom said that she was a shy girl who goes to school and she's driven straight home after school. Now, I know her parents really well and I know that her dad's extremelly strict and he would never ever ever let her have a boyfriend or even think about having one. So...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yesterday, after reading her blog and showing it to my mom we 3 wayed my sister to read to her some lines from a poem the bf has written for the cousin. Just to tell you how big this thing is. I mean, I wasn't allowed to have a boyfriend until I was 22 and even then my mom didn't fully approve, she was just faced with the fact that I had one.
Still shaken from the news, I called my sister to tell her that if S (my little cousin) gets married at 19, 20 or 21; I wasn't going. My sister the genius girl that she is said that I should make it that if S gets married anytime before I get married, that I shouldn't go to the wedding and that in fact, she is such a great sister that, she won't be going either. I agreed, of course, and we said bye.
Now, I just checked the blog again and it appears that they have added tons of other stuff, I can't wait 'till tomorrow to let everyone know about it. It's going to be hillarious I just know it.
Long live puppy love.

posted by LUX @ 3/02/2006 11:46:00 PM 0 comments