Where is the LOVE???
Today I've been kind of depressed. I actually cried this morning. And this whole sadness thing just hit me out of nowhere. Maybe because nothing's happening in the romantic area of my life and that gets to me. No matter how good everything else is, I just don't feel right if there isn't love around. And right now, there isn't. You hear abour Dr Phil talking about how a relationship shouldn't define you, but in my case it would. And truth to be told, I have absolutely no problem with it. I feel better when I'm loved and cared about by someone other than my family or friends.
Someone like a boyfriend. What does that say about me??? A lot I'm sure, and I know it all. What gets to me is that there is nothing nowhere, or rather nobody, nowhere. There isn't even a hint of a possibility. Nope, there is...nothing, nada,nichts, niente, and it goes on and on in all the other languages. I don't know what to do anymore and I'm sooo tired of people asking how come I don't have a boyfriend and me saying I don't know. And they just don't believe that I'm single and think that I'm lying or something. Go figure!!!!I think my problem's that I'm looking for something or someone that doesn't exist. Too many movies, too many romance novels and you start thinking that love is always perfect and nothing less is worth it. I want mr perfect, yet I know that I myself am not perfect, but I want HIM to be. How crazy is that, really??? Does that even make sense??? Should I demand something I can't offer myself??? When I think about it, I'm really not looking for something out of the ordinary, I know it. It's not like I'm thinking I want a millionaire and I want him to be flying me around the world or buying me huge yellow diamond rings. Nooo, I'm not like that. It has more to do with the inside and to me that's the hardest thing to find.
What do you all think?? Are there any girls out there in the same situation?
posted by LUX @ 3/21/2006 09:45:00 PM
1 Comments:
We shared too much real stories (live) so I will not tell u the usual 'don't worry it 'll come when u less expect it, he's somewhere there for u blablablah. i always say that i won't settle for less than the best...but as time goes by i feel that this best is getting so high that am wondering if i'll ever be able to reach it!! it's not about finding Ze Perfect Man on earth, it's just about finding ur Best Perfect Match, cuz perfection is first an illusion and second soooo boring!Meeting boys is nothing. It gets complicated once u are actually in a relationship. Being with someone, The One is not so easy. it takes time, motivation, stimulation, energy, and most importantly patience. That's why they call it commitment. And it takes 2. Full time job my friend...
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