Easy Said, Not As Easy Done
We all grow up dreaming about a perfect wedding and a perfect dress; but I always dreamed of a perfect mariage. It's weird and good at the same time, because most people put so much emphasis on the wedding and totally forget about the mariage. I love the idea of being with one person, sharing the same kind of love and safety of mariage. And let's be honest, I'm a sucker for love. In its pure form. I love love and I love everything about it. Well, maybe not everything since I can very well do without the break up part where you have the feeling that your heart might as well have been snatched from its place and you're left with a hole bigger than planet earth itself. I can also do without those long hours that seem like days, and days that seem like months, when you're thinking that you will never get over it and nobody else will ever be as good, as sweet, as loving, as cute, as funny ...and so many more as. But then months after, you think about it all again and you just can't believe what you used to think. Or if you're one of the unlucky ones; months later, you think about it and just can't believe you still think the same way let alone feel the same thing. But one wouldn't be able to enjoy love at its purest form without having experienced pain at its purest form. The lucky ones among us are those who were able to live, love, feel pain yet love again. I did the first three and I'm waiting with held breath to experience the fourth one. While waiting, I cannot ignore the fact that it's taking quite some time for it to happen. Some say I shouldn't be looking for it and it will happen. Others say that if I look hard enough, I will find the right person. Well I say, that I don't know what to do anymore. I am so tired and so eager to finally find it. I never knew it would be so hard. And the more I think about it, the less reasons I seem to find. I just don't understand what's taking so long. I am ready and have been for quite some time now and with each birthday passing I just feel less and less lucky. What gets to me at times is the fact that I'm not even in a relationship, and when I do the math, it's not as pleasant as I'd want it to be.
But even with all this said, I am still hopeful, and I'll always be. You want to know what's keeping me so hopeful? Well, I'm going to share my secret with you. Here it is:
I am 100% sure that love is out there for me. I am sure that someday sooner or later I will find someone who's going to love all of me. I am sure that he is out there and that we will meet when it's the right time for us to meet.And it will be better than I ever thought.
Until then, I will prepare any way I can to recognize that love while praying it'll happen... sooner rather than later.
posted by LUX @ 2/28/2006 09:45:00 PM
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